I just a new part time job teaching Spanish to adults in San Marcos. I'm pretty excited about it. I've had some really difficult times lately with a long-term relationship having ended (and possibly the friendship ending as well), the confusion of getting out of school, prepping for the GRE, health issues, and just trying to survive day to day while making "me" time to have fun a little.
In gaining this new job, I've been asked about my future with HEB. I've known for a long time that I would be leaving HEB. However, somebody approached me and told me that "It's time for you to get out and go do something that matters!" Of course, they really want to say that I need to get on to working with my future career as an educator in a class setting. While I admire their wanting to encourage me, I think the person would have done better to phrase it differently.
I do think I've done things at HEB that matter. No, I don't think any of it have to do with my work title. The most I've gotten from that is a diet of fruits and veggies sampled weekly, some physical exercise, and a long strain of patience from dealing with customers. But I must say that my time at my most recent HEB has been unique. I have worked with people at this store that, had I never met them, my life would never have been the same. I was and have been fortunate enough (and still am fortunate enough) to have worked with fellow students that not only could I identify with as peers in school, but that were the kinds of free thinking, discourse oriented people I had come to seek out in Texas State but seldom found. It was in this unexpected environment of a grocery store Produce department that I encountered and still know some of the brightest and forward thinking people I've ever had the pleasure of knowing.
Monday, July 4, 2011
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Book work...
I've begun working on what looks like will be a relatively short book (around 80 pages or so). It's going to be concerned with issues of Whiteness and race stratification in the U.S., how this relates to power structures and dynamics, and why I believe fear is the primary driver behind why these dynamics continue as they do.
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Encounters
Recently in a discussion with a a new acquaintance, I found myself discussion my time spent in central Texas. I commented on how much I enjoyed the Austin Film Festival when I've had the chance to go as well as how much I enjoy the Pecan Street Festival, amongst other things like the Spaghetti Warehouse. When I started to share some other unique personal experiences, my time spent in a band arose, followed by my attendance in 2006 to an immigration reform rally in downtown Austin. I mentioned how much different I saw the tone, rhetoric, attitude, and political ends when compared to the (small) Tea Party gathering I hung around on for a bit one day.
The other person asked me, "That's strange. I wouldn't peg you for being someone to go to a Tea Party rally." The truth is that I typically wouldn't, but it was assembled in downtown San Marcos where I lived and couldn't help but indulge a bit, albeit sarcastically, as I walked by. Anyway, during the discussion on this, I mentioned how I found the tone of the event driven by very racist mechanisms of behavior and speech, although I seldom heard overtly racist language used (slurs, classical stereotypes about black people, etc.)
This prompted the person to engage me in how non-racist they not only felt the group is/was, how they identified with the group, but then a litanty of personal facts that they felt qualified them as "anything but racist". The list of details was pretty predictable.
"My black friend Patty wouldn't say that I'm...", "Read their platform! It doesn't say one thing about race as a protest reason...", "They don't think of themselves as racist, and many of the members are Jewish and a good number are Hispanic or Black."
All over the place there are the "I have a black friend!" excuses for their behavior and "The prescence of one non-white person per setting means it's not a racist driven movement or ideology." Best of all, the person or the others have never "thought of themselves" as racist, leading to the assumption that therefore they aren't or couldn't possibly be.
I laid out what I thought to the person in a pretty straightforward way:
1. Just because you have made a friend who is Black/Asian/Hispanic does not mean you do not harbor racist views or tendencies. Period. Invoking your friend as some kind of card to prove your worth does nothing about that. It is possible for white people to have friends of different ethnicities and still harbor racialized attitudes that can result in bigoted actions.
2. The inclusion of a person or persons of color in a group does not mean it doesn't have institutional white supremacist motives. Historically, in the setting of power, many people on the side of the oppressors have accepted the employment of oppressed exceptions who wish to separate themselves from what they see as a disdainful membership of the victimized. Just because the Republicans chose Michael Steele as the head of their party, for example, does not mean that Republicans as a group do not have racialized and bigoted mechanisms behind their behavior in regards to immigration, foreign policy, or domestic policy. Same goes for Democrats and having chosen Barack Obama to be their cantidate for President. Chris Matthews oozed Obama-worship for months when he wound up saying after an Obama speech, "He spoke so well and did a good job, I forgot he was black for an hour."
3. A person who has perpetrated a racist action does not get to choose the consequence of, and subsequently, the prescence of racist feelings or tendencies. This is not to demonize the humanity of someone who has done so, as more often than not people who say or do racist things do not even realize they have, as much racism has become coded, conditioned, or subversive into cultural norms and attitudes. This does not excuse the racism, but it should rather be an incentive for all of us to probe and deconstruct these things, even if it means a blow to the psychological investment many of us have in whiteness and a blow to our own pride through what we perceive as cultural normality.
The other person asked me, "That's strange. I wouldn't peg you for being someone to go to a Tea Party rally." The truth is that I typically wouldn't, but it was assembled in downtown San Marcos where I lived and couldn't help but indulge a bit, albeit sarcastically, as I walked by. Anyway, during the discussion on this, I mentioned how I found the tone of the event driven by very racist mechanisms of behavior and speech, although I seldom heard overtly racist language used (slurs, classical stereotypes about black people, etc.)
This prompted the person to engage me in how non-racist they not only felt the group is/was, how they identified with the group, but then a litanty of personal facts that they felt qualified them as "anything but racist". The list of details was pretty predictable.
"My black friend Patty wouldn't say that I'm...", "Read their platform! It doesn't say one thing about race as a protest reason...", "They don't think of themselves as racist, and many of the members are Jewish and a good number are Hispanic or Black."
All over the place there are the "I have a black friend!" excuses for their behavior and "The prescence of one non-white person per setting means it's not a racist driven movement or ideology." Best of all, the person or the others have never "thought of themselves" as racist, leading to the assumption that therefore they aren't or couldn't possibly be.
I laid out what I thought to the person in a pretty straightforward way:
1. Just because you have made a friend who is Black/Asian/Hispanic does not mean you do not harbor racist views or tendencies. Period. Invoking your friend as some kind of card to prove your worth does nothing about that. It is possible for white people to have friends of different ethnicities and still harbor racialized attitudes that can result in bigoted actions.
2. The inclusion of a person or persons of color in a group does not mean it doesn't have institutional white supremacist motives. Historically, in the setting of power, many people on the side of the oppressors have accepted the employment of oppressed exceptions who wish to separate themselves from what they see as a disdainful membership of the victimized. Just because the Republicans chose Michael Steele as the head of their party, for example, does not mean that Republicans as a group do not have racialized and bigoted mechanisms behind their behavior in regards to immigration, foreign policy, or domestic policy. Same goes for Democrats and having chosen Barack Obama to be their cantidate for President. Chris Matthews oozed Obama-worship for months when he wound up saying after an Obama speech, "He spoke so well and did a good job, I forgot he was black for an hour."
3. A person who has perpetrated a racist action does not get to choose the consequence of, and subsequently, the prescence of racist feelings or tendencies. This is not to demonize the humanity of someone who has done so, as more often than not people who say or do racist things do not even realize they have, as much racism has become coded, conditioned, or subversive into cultural norms and attitudes. This does not excuse the racism, but it should rather be an incentive for all of us to probe and deconstruct these things, even if it means a blow to the psychological investment many of us have in whiteness and a blow to our own pride through what we perceive as cultural normality.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
2010
The first decade of the new millenium we were all freaking out over not too long ago is now coming to a close. It was pretty unique in that many unpredictable events came to pass, but that's about where it ends. How we as a nation handled the unpredictability was, well, predictable. We handled it with the same laziness, narcissism, and excess of pride that we usually do. From 9/11 and the two wars started in its wake to the tragic handling to Katrina to the Wall Street financial disasters to electing the first black president, our country time and again showed its true colors in responding to such events.
My full thoughts have been put up on my facebook, and if you should ever want to view them, just shoot me an email or request it here and I can mail you the full document.
Personally, I'm glad to see it end. A lot of personal growth took place for me in this decade, but I think I'm looking forward to this next decade more to see what we as a country can do (if anything) to grow as well. I concluded my thoughts with saying that the word we should embrace instead of "Hope" from the left or some nostalgic nonsense from the right is the word "sense". We're lacking it in the worst way and need to get a hold of it badly.
My full thoughts have been put up on my facebook, and if you should ever want to view them, just shoot me an email or request it here and I can mail you the full document.
Personally, I'm glad to see it end. A lot of personal growth took place for me in this decade, but I think I'm looking forward to this next decade more to see what we as a country can do (if anything) to grow as well. I concluded my thoughts with saying that the word we should embrace instead of "Hope" from the left or some nostalgic nonsense from the right is the word "sense". We're lacking it in the worst way and need to get a hold of it badly.
I'm back
I'll be back on here periodically, as my availability to use the internet has opened up more.
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Saturday, August 21, 2010
Explanation
I've been absent for a while. There's a fairly simple reason: I have no internet at my new place and I only get a few hours a week here at the library to read, catch up, etc.
I also have not been writing lately (bad news), but I have indeed been reading a LOT (good news). It's the only kind of escapism I can find that doesn't make me feel like I'm completely withdrawing from all things necessary to make this world a better place in some form or another. The last two books I've read haven't been about race (though I did read Frank Wu's "Yellow", which I recommend to all), but rather about the Crusades and the Middle East.
I've also been preparing for my last semester in college, so there's been a lot for me to get done.
I promise I'll be back.
I also have not been writing lately (bad news), but I have indeed been reading a LOT (good news). It's the only kind of escapism I can find that doesn't make me feel like I'm completely withdrawing from all things necessary to make this world a better place in some form or another. The last two books I've read haven't been about race (though I did read Frank Wu's "Yellow", which I recommend to all), but rather about the Crusades and the Middle East.
I've also been preparing for my last semester in college, so there's been a lot for me to get done.
I promise I'll be back.
Friday, April 30, 2010
Things to keep in mind...
Some thoughts I had after hearing and reading discussions on race recently, particularly in regards to white/non-white perspectives in a white centric society...
1. Seriously, in a discussion about race (a topic which POC live and deal with daily in a White centric society), it would help most in the discussion if Whites were to put as much effort into understanding things from the POC viewpoint as they often end up using in rebutting and dismissing.
2. As I heard it said once, "Calling out an action of racism is not calling a person in question a racist as though it were some classification of the persons irredeemably evil nature." It's calling something out for what it is. Calling an action racist is more than just calling out an action, it's an affirmation of something that has effects for individuals and society. It's not a primary personal attack.
3. White people cannot consider themselves some final authority all the time on whether something is racist, especially when the action in name comes from a White person. I say this because simply questioning and holding something up to scrutiny isn't completely legit in the respect of racism. When one has been trained to see things from a White perspective, that is how that person is going to judge unless they step outside of their experience and into anothers. All people have experiences based off of their racial status that shape their views and perceptions, and Whites are no exception here. The road-block is that many Whites feel their view is "normal", a "generic" or "individual" view and not a "White" view. This is the effect of Whiteness. Anyway, It's not about seeing things differently from one another, it's about whether one side is making the effort to see things as another one might.
4. I am getting sick and tired of hearing White people dismiss minorities are "too sensitive" and "get over it" as though minorities are easily side-tracked from relevance in a discussion and look for insult and offense at every possible opportunity, that they find pleasure from experiencing it. Unlike the White observer in most cases, the racism in the topic tends to affect the POC more often than the White person, so it's important that the White participant have empathy and an understanding beyond their own White experiences. Their limits of perception of the White person(s) do not define the scope of analysis in the situation. The ease by which Whites disavow an experience which is not their own is one of the most troubling things I've noticed lately, and it tends to spring from this sort of monopolizing the scope of discussion to their own.
Just a few thoughts.
1. Seriously, in a discussion about race (a topic which POC live and deal with daily in a White centric society), it would help most in the discussion if Whites were to put as much effort into understanding things from the POC viewpoint as they often end up using in rebutting and dismissing.
2. As I heard it said once, "Calling out an action of racism is not calling a person in question a racist as though it were some classification of the persons irredeemably evil nature." It's calling something out for what it is. Calling an action racist is more than just calling out an action, it's an affirmation of something that has effects for individuals and society. It's not a primary personal attack.
3. White people cannot consider themselves some final authority all the time on whether something is racist, especially when the action in name comes from a White person. I say this because simply questioning and holding something up to scrutiny isn't completely legit in the respect of racism. When one has been trained to see things from a White perspective, that is how that person is going to judge unless they step outside of their experience and into anothers. All people have experiences based off of their racial status that shape their views and perceptions, and Whites are no exception here. The road-block is that many Whites feel their view is "normal", a "generic" or "individual" view and not a "White" view. This is the effect of Whiteness. Anyway, It's not about seeing things differently from one another, it's about whether one side is making the effort to see things as another one might.
4. I am getting sick and tired of hearing White people dismiss minorities are "too sensitive" and "get over it" as though minorities are easily side-tracked from relevance in a discussion and look for insult and offense at every possible opportunity, that they find pleasure from experiencing it. Unlike the White observer in most cases, the racism in the topic tends to affect the POC more often than the White person, so it's important that the White participant have empathy and an understanding beyond their own White experiences. Their limits of perception of the White person(s) do not define the scope of analysis in the situation. The ease by which Whites disavow an experience which is not their own is one of the most troubling things I've noticed lately, and it tends to spring from this sort of monopolizing the scope of discussion to their own.
Just a few thoughts.
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