Hard to know what you're feeling sometimes.

As much as I educate myself on race/ethnicity related topics and do what I can to encourage and ferment an anti-racist mindset, it is really fucking tough sometimes in the society I live in. Some days I barely notice it, if at all. Others, however, it is really easy to see how one can go throughout most of (if not all) their entire life not having to give a shit, other than a token comment here or there, about the problems and concerns of others who are not White. And every time I remember that it really feels sort of discouraging for a moment.

Then I think to myself "Man, there's gotta be more people out there that give a shit on a real level about this stuff". So I run into some progressive minded people, but their lack of nuance on the topic and propensity to say things like "Oh yeah, I totally know about ethnic issues. My friend is black, so...yeah", as if having a black friend were the be all/end all of understanding race/ethnic relations in the country.

Now and then I run into people who are in tune on the topic, but seldom is it a White person. I can think of 4 or 5 people that I know semi-close to very close who are aware of racial/ethnic relations on a real level, and all are non-White. 

It really sucks the most, actually, to meet someone who is very nuanced and well-read on other important issues like global warming, religious propaganda, class issues, or gender problems, but still remains largely ignorant on race related topics and doesn't seem to get why I "get on that topic" as opposed to some other one. 

I expect most these days to be uninformed on the issue. But maybe I shouldn't let that make me more complacent. Maybe it's time for me to stop seeking out people who do know more about it and start looking for those who don't. 

Vamos a ver.